sleepless night

Hiaz bad move again this time.
at first i got 3 choice..and becoz one job confirm me first.
I take that up and rejected the 2 other choice.

But when i start wk, i realize i was wrong,
the job that near my hse, which done video, the job scope, did nt
appear to what I had expected. In fact they should hire a programmer.

Only the first 2 days..already make me feel stress, nervous and unhappy.
My boss had no knowledge of flash, think everything are very simple.
And once task pass to you, he dont care, and go for his own schedule.
I feel so stress..yes..i can let the problem be..but I am those kind of
person that will try.

Now, I left with worries..and unclear of future.
I cant sleep yesterday since 1am, i watch tv,
switch off tv, try to sleep again..but i failed..
my body are really tired..but my mind cant stop floating
question mark, my eye cant close..

I know I am over worried...

And try to sent message again to the company and try....

I am scared of becoming jobless person..without money...

as i lived alone..i had so much to pay...rent, daily necessary, mobile and internet bill and so on..

I start to worry about my own ability...

both side of my neck are pain and my mind now is tired..but..
I still need to go back to my current job (wrong post one)
I cant leave until I find a confirm one.

May be life are always fill wif obstacle ba...
I hope i can learn to get it easy..
I dont want to tell my mum..dont want to make her worry...

I know hope are always for tomorrow..but will i got chance to get the hopes..